The Journal

Sedih pasal aper? Hmm...nampak nyer untuk sementara waktu ni ahkak tak boleh ler nak wat projek baking2, wat kek ker kecuali kek kukus jer,huhuhu), wat roti ker....pizza ker.....atau2 apa2 kerja yang kena bakar2 lah sebab my oven sudah rosak. Huhuhu.....sedih wooo.....macam mana boleh rosak? Well, hari Khamis lepas ada la orang ni datang umah mai betulkan dapo ni sikit, pastu ntah cemaner la dia wat keje dia tak alih pon all my stuff yang ada kat counter top tuh.....dia main redah jer, tiba2 ntah cemaner dia terlanggar ker ...terjatuh ker..sampai my oven tu pon jatuh tergolek. Ahkak tak nampak pon sebenarnyer sebab ahkak masa tu tengah sembahyang. Ahkak cuma dengar bunyi tunggang langgang benda jatuh. Bila ahkak gi jenguk tengok2 oven dah elok2 dok atas counter tu balik as if like nothing happened la...tapi dia tak tahu...ahkak ni C.S.I....(kuikuikui)....akak dapati gula2 yg hubby akak sorok (from the kids) dalam oven tu dah bertabur....pastu atas oven tu jugak ada sesikat pisang dok

I"m now actually at KLIA just arrived from KB and I'm grabbing all the chance to get myself online while I have the chance. Tomorow we'll be celebrating Eidul-Adha and my flight from KB to KL just now was only 1/4 being occupied. I guess everyone is going to Kota Bharu instead of leaving Kota Bharu...huhuhu...sedey nyer......we'll be celebrating the Eid at my hubby's kampung and this is my first time celebrating it there. I wonder how it would be.......hmm......saying good bye to my mom...my abah....my sisters.....my family....is never easy....I tried hard not burst into tears. It's okay.....we'll see each other again next year.....perhaps in May? I love all you so very much and I'm definitely are missing all of you already.Huhuhuhu....

Yesterday I received a sad news.....my dear cousin Abe Ra had passed away. I wasn't sure what was the cause of his death. Poor my auntie Cik Yah, last July she just lost her husband of 40 years- my uncle, Ayah Sid , and now her eldest son. Abe Ra is not even 40 yetbut according to my sister, Jie, Abe Ra had been complaining of severe head ache since last Raya, and he had to be warded because of that.He almost lost his life once when he was struck by high voltage electric shock at work. He burnt quite a large part of his body, inlcuding his face but he survived. He was a nice person and always in hand whenever we need his favor especially with the electric thingy. He reminded me of my late uncle, Ayah Soh...who used to do this electric wiring in our house (and other relatives)too. ***************************************** Mohd Umran Wan Abdul Rashid, had peacefully departed on 30th October 2008, leaving behind a mother (Nariah), a wife (Wan Rohaya),5 brothers (Umar Khairi, Mohs Zaf

Tonight I'm very proud of myself because despite of all the mess the kids did...after all the baby crying...the bigger kids fighting....I'm still sane. Hehehe . After Maghrib as usual I would prepare the kids dinner. Laila ordered for Chapattis , Sophea wanted to have rice and Yasmin? She just ate whatever her sisters were having . So there I was in the kitchen preparing their meal. While I was rolling flat the chapatti dough I remembered that I haven't yet fed Aina but luckily for me she was just happy rolling herself here and there. So, takpelah .....I can deal with her once I've finished with the chapattis. The meal was ready and so did the kids by the table but Yasmin refused to sit in her highchair so I just let her sit on the regular chair instead, along with her elder sisters. They enjoyed their meal very much in fact Sophea also had some chapattis once she had finished her rice and Chicken Kurma . Since it was already time for Isyak prayer so I decided to

I guess...I'm not fun to be with, I guess.....I'm a bored person, I guess.....I am nobody, I guess.....I am not special...far from being important, I guess....I think too much, I guess......that's all. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Happy Chinese New Year everyone.....

I ain't no saint nor that I'm blind or deaf I can see, hear and feel things around me.... yet I choose not to... I guess, I finally succeed to make myself numb.

I am a whale. Whale is the biggest mammals in the whole wide world. It gives birth and breastfeed their cubs, just like other mammals. Why the heck am I talking whales? I don't know ......but right now....I feel like I'm a whale........

Entah laa....hari ni bangun tido rasa down sangat.....tak tahu kenapa....rasa tak bersemangat.....tapi kerja tetap jalan...yelah...nak wat cemaner...life goes on....and memang hakikatnyer kehidupan kita ni memang macam nie...ada ups and downs......ada masa kita happy...ada masa kita sedih....but at the moment memang rasa macam letih....down...down......gitulah...tader mood nak cakap..aper lagi bercerita....takpelah.....ni temporary je nih.....I know myself..... :)

entah ler....hari ni rasa cam tak berapa nak bercakap jer.....rasa tak der mood....ntah ler.... rasa sunyi pong ada......rasa nak marah jer memanjang.......nak kata PMS...tak pong pasal aku tgh dalam pantang....PMS kebende nyer..... bior lah...esok kang elok ler.........tgk lah cemaner...... ni nak tunggu Survivor nih....special 2 hours.....tak tahu lah...nak kena tukar2 channel la nampak gaya pasal ada orang tu nak tgk first match World Cup.....

Numb....... how i wish i could be numb.... won't feel a thing.... won't hurt a bit.....